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After the Fourth Great Shinobi World War ended, the world was experiencing a time of peace. The villages for once were able to live in relative harmony with one another as they rebuilt, and for once, all seemed to be well. The kage were able to live peaceful lives and soon began retiring, passing on the baton to the next generations. That is until an unknown virus infects the northern coast. The first to fall is the once powerful Raikage, Ay. While many thought this virus was a simple mutation of what may have well been the flu, no one would ever think of the destruction it would cause. Especially when it infected a certain Uzumaki Naruto.
With his death came the malice; with the malice came the destruction; with the destruction came the shinobi' revolt; and with the revolt came the sacrifices. The Bijuu became filled with malice that they sought to destroy the world. Shinobi sought a way to fight them and once again capture each of the Bijuu. Time passed, and a plan was devised. The Jinchuuriki would be sacrificed for the greater good of the world, and with the deaths of nine individuals, an uneasy peace began.
As time continued, the villages began to truly restructure. In a peace that would last 80 years after the downfall of the Bijuu, the world would see the creation of a great many things. Technology was beginning to take root and before long the blossoms that grew from the tree of the advanced mind would bear fruit. A many great things came to be. A railroad between the vast many nations. Mechanical limbs to replace lost ones. Radios that could reach between villages. Everything seemed to be becoming less reliant on the shinobi. Only the need for them never truly vanished. As with the growth of time, also continued the growth of malice.
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 18, 2014 17:47:46 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
"Nice. I can see why you wouldn't want to dye it, it's such a pretty color. I keep getting told I should dye mine back to my natural color, but... I don't listen very well." They couldn't make him dye his hair, and it hadn't gotten him killed yet so he figured he was fine. It's not like streaks were worse than bright natural hair colors. If stealth was really important, of course he'd use temporary dye or something, but dammit, he liked his streaks, and screw anybody who told him he shouldn't.
Kaede grimaced when the question came out of Yuu's mouth. "My parents didn't want a daughter. They hated me. Eventually I gave up trying to make them happy and did what I wanted to do instead. In a clan like mine, there's a certain set of expectations, and if you don't live up to them you might as well just be trash. I didn't listen, I didn't wear the clan crest, I didn't act dignified. I had the gall to express who I really was. It was a double-edged sword, really... when you act out all the time, nobody believes you when you try to tell them something serious." There was a haunted look in his eyes, and he subconsciously traced his fingers along his wrist. "Everything was always just... An accident. The whole clan turned a blind eye to what they did to me. There was a reason they never let me see a medic that wasn't part of the clan."
He fell silent, losing himself in the haze of memories. The first time he'd told his sensei that his parents hit him, he'd gotten laughed at. Why should I believe a lazy, good for nothing kid? You should show your parents more respect instead of trying to get them in trouble, brat. And the man had gone straight to his parents and told them what an awful liar of a child they had. Things had only gotten worse and worse from there.
Post by Kamizuru Yuu on Sept 18, 2014 18:01:45 GMT
it doesn't change the fact that
i was born to fly
Yuu listened to the male's story as he spoke, getting a much deeper answer than he had been expecting. The medic noticed the way the Uchiha touched his wrist—the one that Yuu himself had grabbed—before he continued speaking. Yuu had figured by the way Kaede had acted there was some sort of physical abuse in his past. Yuu had seen that kind of thing before. Had been there. But...
"...There was a reason they never let me see a medic that wasn't part of the clan."
“What did they do to you, Kaede?” Yuu asked softly, the masculine edge absent from his voice. Being a medic plus his love of books allowed Yuu's imagination to get ideas, but he didn't like where these ideas were going, and rather hoped he was wrong...
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 18, 2014 18:16:05 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
He had said too much to pretend that everything was fine now. He should have just kept his mouth shut, or told Yuu that he just didn't like following the rules, or something else innocent and stupid and typical of teenagers. Stupid, stupid, stupid. There was still a part of him that felt that someone was going to do horrible things to him if he dared tell anyone what his family had done to him.
He hesitated before he spoke, glancing up at Yuu. "I was ten, the first time. I stayed after school and told my sensei a-at the academy that my father had hit me and burned me with his cigarettes and that it wasn't from training accidents. I... he didn't believe a word I said. W-went straight to my father and told him what I'd said." Kaede was quiet for a long moment, trying to find the words to say what he'd never said before. "A-as soon as my sensei left, my father - he, h-he grabbed me by the wrist a-and dragged me into his bedroom. I-I thought he was j-just going t-to hit me so I didn't fight him too hard. I d-didn't want him to kill me. But instead, he... He..."
Kaede shook his head violently. He couldn't say it. He was trapped in the memory, terrified of the father he hadn't seen in almost a decade, unable to tell the medic everything it hurt so bad not to say. He curled in on himself, rested his head on his knees, and began to bawl like a child.
Post by Kamizuru Yuu on Sept 18, 2014 19:38:06 GMT
it doesn't change the fact that
i was born to fly
The Kamizuru felt a pit in his stomach that increasingly grew as he listened to Kaede stumble over his own words trying to say what happened. It was so awful... holy shit.
Yuu didn't know what to do when the Ame nin started crying. But it seemed like he had a lot more to get off of his chest. A momentary lapse in memory that this was a stranger had Yuu on his knees, hugging the older male's shoulders. Yuu didn't like it when people cried, especially not like this, and pulled Kaede's head against his chest. It wouldn't be the first time he'd comforted a stranger.
“Shhhh... He can't do that to you anymore.” Yuu recalled Kaede saying that he hadn't seen his family in years. “What else did he do?”
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CHAKRA | 100% WORD COUNT | 132 TAGS | Uchiha Kaede ADDL. NOTES | Kicked puppy treatment syndrome. Yuu can't stand crying people and does whatever he can to comfort them. Even if they're strangers.
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 18, 2014 20:37:33 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
Kaede's body shook as he sobbed, a steady stream of tears running down his face. His eyes were screwed shut, as if he was afraid of what he would see if he dared to open them again. This perfect stranger now knew so much more about him than even his comrades, things they would never dream of - and he'd know more still, because now that he had started talking he just couldn't stop.
He hadn't seen Yuu move to hug him again, and his initial reaction to the younger male's touch was to struggle violently against it, recalling a time long past when a pair of strong hands on his shoulders was the precursor to something terrible. Obviously he wasn't in a good state of mind at the moment. Yuu pulled Kaede close and rested the tokujo's head on his chest; he finally opened his eyes, realized who was hugging him, and clung to the boy like a lifeline.
"P-pretty much a-anything you could think of. H-he r-raped me. He m-made me..." Kaede took a deep breath and continued talking, listing off an array of acts that no one in their right mind would do to a child. "My mother didn't stop him. Th-there were times, she'd come in the room w-while he was... A-and she just acted like there was n-nothing wrong with it."
He hiccuped and wiped the tears off his face, though the gesture was pointless being that the flow didn't seem like it would stop anytime soon. "I hate them so much. At one point i-in my life I-I wanted to kill them." A momentary pause. "I hate m-myself more," he added in a voice that was barely a whisper. "S-so much m-more."
Post by Kamizuru Yuu on Sept 18, 2014 21:39:51 GMT
it doesn't change the fact that
i was born to fly
Yuu couldn't recall the last time he'd felt so helpless trying to help someone. All he could really do was listen. Yuu was aware that things like that happened, but to actually meet someone who'd gone through such terrible things was an entirely different experience. The way Yuu was imagining it as Kaede spoke probably couldn't even amount to how it actually was, either.
“Don't hate yourself. You didn't do a damn thing wrong. You're strong.”
Yuu wasn't sure how he'd feel if he'd been put in that situation. Probably wouldn't of made it out. Hell, if it weren't for Kyo, the favored twin, protecting Yuu, the medic wasn't exactly sure what would have happened, and he's not sure he'd ever want to. But surely nothing to that extent, his parents couldn't possibly be such monsters. And even if it did happen... someone probably would have died. Kaede was strong.
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 18, 2014 22:03:51 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
Kaede made a sound not unlike a whimper and scooted closer to Yuu. "I can't just stop. I... I-I spent so long hating myself b-because I never did anything. I d-didn't face my problems. I ran from them like a fucking coward. That's all I am. All I ever will be." Ignoring your problems, trying to pretend they didn't exist, trying to make yourself think that all that messed up shit was normal... It did a lot to a person. And none of it was good.
"I started running... and I never stopped. I ran away from my clan, I deserted my village, I hid everything about myself and pushed my comrades away. I'm all alone, a-and it's all my fault, and I don't know how to fix it. I don't know if I can fix it." Kaede looked up at Yuu. He hadn't felt this helpless in a long time. Probably because he refused to confront his problems and chose to stew in his loneliness instead. "I've never... No one else in the world knows this much about me. I kept everything bottled up for so long and I just..."
It was hard to listen to the older male speak, and Yuu stroked the multi-colored hair. There were a lot of definitions of cowardice.
“You didn't run away. It would better be defined as a “tactical retreat.” Sometimes leaving is the best answer. You wouldn't have been better off if you had stayed there.”
When it seemed like Kaede's crying had slowed, he loosened his grip of the boy, meeting eye contact.
“You're only alone if you let yourself be. I'm sure there's at least one person who cares for you now. You just need to find them. You won me over pretty quick, I'm betting some of your comrades care for you more than you realize.”
Though to be fair, if it weren't for the two sharing a major secret in common, Yuu doubted he'd have gotten along with the Uchiha so quickly. But that was a fact he'd keep to himself
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 21, 2014 14:03:17 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
Kaede sighed and scooted a little closer to Yuu; he didn't want to end up with a crick in his neck 'cause he'd been in an odd position. "I guess you've got a point there. I needed to get out of there. If I hadn't, I probably wouldn't be alive..." Konoha generally had a reputation as the 'nicest' of the shinobi villages; they were more than happy to perpetuate the lie in order to cover up some of the more debased shit that happened within their perfect little village. It disgusted Kaede.
He nodded. "I'm going to try to make some friends. I guess I can start with my squad." Kaede really was going to approach at least one of the members of his ANBU squad and see if any of them wanted to do... uhm, whatever it was that friends did together. Yeah, this was going to be interesting. "I'm... A large part of me is still worried, though. If they find out the truth and don't want anything to do with me anymore..."
Post by Kamizuru Yuu on Sept 21, 2014 20:28:52 GMT
it doesn't change the fact that
i was born to fly
"I'm going to try to make some friends. I guess I can start with my squad."
Yuu finally sat back on his legs, satisfied that the older male had calmed down.
“Yea, they would be the best people to start with.”
"I'm... A large part of me is still worried, though. If they find out the truth and don't want anything to do with me anymore..."
“If they want nothing to do with you afterward, then they wouldn't be worth keeping around. I have one friend who continued to stay by my side, and he's still my best friend. Find yours, too. One good friend is better than five superficial ones.”
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 24, 2014 21:53:45 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
He acknowledged Yuu's reply with a nod, shifting into a more comfortable position. Didn't want to have a crick in his neck, after all. "You're really good at giving advice, y'know," he commented. "Ever think about being a counselor for shinobi?" A lot shinobi ended up with PTSD or other mental illnesses, and couldn't well spill all their secrets and sensitive information to a civilian counselor. So there was a branch of the forces that served as counselors for those shinobi. Kaede thought it was a really cool job, and he would have considered it if he was any good at helping people.
"...I should really get going. I need to get home." But he didn't want to leave, and Yuu could probably tell. He was kind of attached to the Iwa chuunin. He wanted to consider him a friend. And if he chickened out again and got up and left, that wouldn't happen.
Post by Kamizuru Yuu on Sept 25, 2014 19:48:31 GMT
it doesn't change the fact that
i was born to fly
"You're really good at giving advice, y'know." Yuu tilted his head. Really now? "Ever think about being a counselor for shinobi?"
Yuu scratched the back of his head in thought.
“I've never considered it, really. But I think I'd rather stay a field medic. I like to heal and support my teammates when they need me. It feels good knowing that I can make a difference in the midst of chaos.”
It wasn't necessarily a bad idea. Yuu gave advice whenever he felt he could offer it. Sometimes it was not asked for, but all he really wanted to do is help people.
"...I should really get going. I need to get home."
Ah right. They were from opposing villages, weren't they? Yuu needed to move on as well. But...
“...wait. You're probably the only Uchiha I'm ever going to get the chance to meet, so... um. Can I see your eyes?”
There it was, the question Yuu had been wanting to ask. He looked a bit hopeful; Yuu loved examining the kekkei genkai of different types. Doujutsu were a particularly interesting subject.
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 25, 2014 21:28:14 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
"Yeah, I can see where you're coming from. Must be nice, to be able to make a difference like that." Kaede was good at what he did, but he never really got the opportunity to save lives. Only to take them. Not that he had a problem with that - it was his job, after all, and he'd chosen it himself.
He didn't really know how to respond to Yuu's question. First of all, he wasn't sure he wanted to let the boy get that close for an extended period of time. Second, he really shouldn't let a medic get all science-y on his eyes when said medic was from a different village that his village may not end up being friends with. But, well, nobody ever said that Kaede made the right decisions. But he listened to his instincts, and they weren't exactly telling him to get up and run.
He sighed. "I shouldn't... But alright. For you." Turning to face Yuu, he activated his Sharingan and waited.
Post by Kamizuru Yuu on Sept 27, 2014 23:18:56 GMT
it doesn't change the fact that
i was born to fly
"I shouldn't... But alright. For you."
If Yuu had a tail, it would have been wagging. This was, perhaps, a once in a lifetime opportunity. Tentatively, Yuu put a hand on the Uchiha's face. When he seemed okay with that, Yuu leaned a lot closer, looking into the red eyes. What made them red? Was it blood, perhaps? But then the spinning tomoe... they seemed to dilate minutely when Kaede blinked. He tipped the older male's chin up so the light would hit the irises better. Yuu had seen crimson eyes, but the sharingan was an entirely different level. With his thumb, Yuu brushed some of the pink hair out of Kaede's eyes.
“Your eyes are really pretty,” he commented. He kind of wished he had tools better to look at the eyes, but he had not been expecting meeting anyone like Kaede here. Realizing the other boy's discomfort, Yuu released Kaede's face and backed away. “I have a ton of questions I'd love to ask you about your eyes, but you need to go home, don't you?”
Post by Uchiha Kaede on Sept 27, 2014 23:26:20 GMT
never
you take your needles and sew my mouth shut but you will never hear the last of me
Kaede flinched back from Yuu's touch, but forced himself to breathe and let the boy's hand rest on his face. The chuunin's proximity was incredibly uncomfortable, and Kaede had to bite back a whimper. He'd given Yuu permission to get this close, so he needed to man up and fucking deal with it.
"Um, thanks. Never heard that one before," he murmured, chuckling softly. He still wasn't exactly okay with how close Yuu's face was to his face. In fact, he realized as he crossed his arms again, his hands were shaking. Of course, he knew that the boy didn't mean him any harm. But the effects of abuse couldn't just fade over the course of a couple hours, no matter how much he wished they could.
"Yeah. Yeah, I really do," the tokujo confirmed, sighing and getting to his feet, brushing the dirt off the seat of his pants. "But uh... Goddamn, this is a stupid offer to make, but nobody ever said I was smart. If it happens that we should meet again, and you should happen to have whatever it is you need to examine a doujutsu... Well, I think you see where I'm going with this." He grinned at Yuu, tossed him another candy, and turned to leave.